I have changed my life around and am still not happy

2022.01.21 20:57 MoonfaceReno I have changed my life around and am still not happy

Since the pandemic started everything became super challenging. Things were already difficult but after my cat passed away it worsen big time.
I have been grieving for a couple of months now, to make matters worse during this time I was in a very stressful job where although I got constant positive feedback from customers my manager treated me awfully. What made it more difficult was that nothing distracted me from everything that was going on. It got to the point where I'd puke due to anxiety and have panic attacks before work or as soon as I'd wake up. I lost a lot of weight which me losing my appetite didn't help. Any self-worth I had was gone and everyday was a nightmare.
Last week I left my job and today got accepted at a new job at the same place my mom works. I've joined dating apps and have a possible date soon and been making an effort to meet and talk to more people. During this time between jobs I am focusing on my health and making appointments I never had the time for with work.
However, I still feel just as depressed and anxious. My mom is very excited and happy that we're going to be colleagues but that is terrifying me and is making me regret applying for the job in the first place. I feel like it's too co-dependent. I still live with her due to financial reasons and her being somewhat dependent. Then at the same time I feel extremely ungrateful and spoilt for even feeling this way, it's an easy job with better pay and more career progression. My self-esteem is in absolute shatters to where I had to remove the mirror in my bedroom. I really want to go on a date but I can't even make myself look pleasant enough to go grocery shopping.
I've worked so hard on improving myself and my mental health these past years, everything that has happened since the pandemic started has just completely ruined what I worked so hard to achieve. I feel like I missed my opportunity to be happy and now I'll never will. I genuinely can't phantom why anyone could ever possibly like me and can not shake away the feeling that I am doomed to be alone because of how uninteresting I am inside and out. I use the little energy I have on improving my mindset because I know ultimately these are signs of depression but it's becoming more and more difficult to fight with so little energy and it's really hard to do this alone so I would appreciate any advice really. I have already been to therapy which is what has helped me the most in the past, but I know it simply wouldn't help me at the moment as well as I wouldn't be able to with my new work shifts, so please don't point me in that direction.
TL;DR: Things have been bad so I left my job and started a new one at the same place where my mom works, now I feel both like I've made a mistake because it makes our relationship far too co-dependent and that I'm ungrateful and an absolute asshole for even feeling this unhappy about getting the job when my mom is so happy. I also got back into dating again but have no self-esteem to do so and feel like I'm going to disappoint the other person or allow how low I feel about myself to ruin the date. Would appreciate advice on how to calm my anxiety down about this job and how to be less shallow and not let my lack of self-esteem stop me from living and experiencing life.
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2022.01.21 20:57 EarthMurloc Guys Which itteration of my deck is better? i cant feel to much diference and im pretty new to this card game :s

A full Trickstar
B Artifact itteration with a more "Tech" Extra deck
A or B? i'd love to hear tips for a new player aswell
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2022.01.21 20:57 jerm1820 Vettix

FYI if you are a US Armed Forces veteran or currently serving and need tickets to a show on this upcoming tour, check out Vettix.org. They give up to 4 free tickets depending on availability. All you have to pay is a $15 Ticketmaster transfer fee. Just got 2 tickets to the Reno show on Tuesday and can't wait!
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2022.01.21 20:57 td139523 Where would Yao rank compared to the top centers today?

Personally, I think he’d be more dominant in todays game given the increase in spacing. A close third to Embiid and Jokic is where he’d be imo
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2022.01.21 20:57 candycookie001 With cat [f22]

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2022.01.21 20:57 Difficult_Citizen OpenVPN Issue

Hopefully this is in the correct place. I've been searching online and haven't been very succesfully, but admittedly i'm not certain how to search it. Here's the issue:
My company uses leverages a firewall product that uses openVPN for it's VPN componenent. It usually generates a configuration file specific to each user. When I connect on a windows machine, I can access VPN resources, and surf the internet no problem. When I connect via a macbook using tunnelblick and the configuration file assigned to me, I can connect, access vpn resources, and surf the internet. When I configure my Tumbleweed box, it connects and I can access VPN resources, but I can NOT surf the internet. This tells me that the VPN itself doesn't route internet traffic, and that I likely need to route traffic myself on my local machine, only i'm uncertain how to even check this theory, let alone add a route since I'm wildly new to openSuse. I was hoping someone may have had similar experience, or at the very least, have better understanding of openSuse that I do and where to make changes. I've also learned that I can only configure the vpn via a file in PLASMA (KDE) and not Gnome for some reason? Any help would be much appreciated.
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2022.01.21 20:57 Kazcej Who's beautiful/ handsome / amazing in every way?

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2022.01.21 20:57 xpheriono I love when scavs help you out as a PMC

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2022.01.21 20:57 Head-Working4376 memorial for Ares the snail.

memorial for Ares the snail. I got Ares in early 2021. he was the first milk snail I’ve ever owned, as well as the only brown one. he started deeply retracting in December, and despite multiple attempts at treatment he unfortunately passed this morning. instead of feeling sad about his death, I feel more relieved then anything. it was a death I knew was coming, and I will truly miss him.
known for his obsession with cucumbers and rather clumsy personality, I will truly miss him. rest easy, pal :’)
him early 2021
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2022.01.21 20:57 Interesting-Secret70 Un mapuche invadio el reddit🧐

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2022.01.21 20:57 Ill_Treat1628 Getting Worms and Rabies from Kitten

I am extremely scared of contracting these two things from my kitten.
He recently started vomiting worms and got dewormed. While cleaning his vomit, I accidentally touched it a little. Washed my hands thoroughly but I have been very paranoid since.
He also bites us hard enough to leave scratches and it's painful when he is being particularly aggressive. He doesn't always do it, only when he's in a playful mood. Getting him vaccinated next week but I am scared of rabies too now. He did go out a fair bit during the past few days. Maybe important to add that ever since we got him, we gave him the bad habit of playing with our hands. So his hand biting isn't something that's come out of nowhere, it's just been a tad aggressive recently when he does do it.
Secondly, how long does it take for rabies to be apparent in cats and humans (Google says 10 days to a year...)? Is there a time frame after which we can be sure that neither a human nor the cat has rabies? The kitten acts fine otherwise. Playful, curious, eats fine, actually quite fond of water etc.
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2022.01.21 20:57 The_MadMage_Halaster "If you free me I'll give you a cookie"

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2022.01.21 20:57 NemoIsNotLost Can a single woman (23F) be friends with a married man (27M)?

I am in a long term relationship with my boyfriend (27M) with plans to get married in the next 1-2 years. We even started looking at rings recently. But technically I am still single.
Recently I became friends with a guy at a different department at work. We rarely interact at work but the few times we did we just clicked and became instant friends. Now we text for hours everyday. We don’t hang out often just because we live in opposite directions from each other and we just work conflicting schedules.
My other friends have seen how much I’m texting him and told me I need to back off because it’s wrong for a single woman to be this involved with a married man. I said we are only friends and have no intentions to be with anyone but our respective partners.
Is this friendship as weird as my friends are making it out to be?
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2022.01.21 20:57 STIIBBNEY What does it mean to have a special interest in people?

I heard "people" often being listed as an example of special/obsessive interests in people with autism.
But what do they mean by this? Because that makes it sound as if they have a bizzare or creepy obsession with an individual, but I'm assuming that isn't the case.
If there's anyone here who has a special interest surrounding people, I'm curious to know more details.
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2022.01.21 20:57 NecroseusAnastasia RP Kingdom [SMP] [PvP] [Anarchy] [Semi-Vanilla] {Roleplay} {Reputation System} {PvP Titles} {KeepInventory} {Java Edition 1.18.1}

Welcome to RPK! A pure experience of Minecraft at its core!
We just had a Server wipe, and this world is going to be sticking with us for a long time! It's the perfect time to join in on the madness!
Version: Java Edition 1.18.1
Server IP: play.rpkingdom.com
PMC Page: https://www.planetminecraft.com/servevanilla-pvp-grief
Server Description:
RPK is a Vanilla PvP Roleplaying server that has been up 24/7 since 2012. You will not find another PVP server with unrestricted fighting and building. NO free items, NO block protection, NO chest protection, NO whitelist, NO item restrictions, NO teleporting, NO donators. Griefing is allowed, however, do not confuse griefing with cheating. Anyone using cheating programs will be banned permanently with no warnings. You can destroy anywhere, you can steal from anyone, you can build anywhere, you can betray people, you can use TNT, you can light the entire world on fire. Some commonsense rules do apply.
Reputation Factions:
You may become a Hero, Villain, Noble, Knight, Undead, Goblin, Fairy, Dark Fairy, or Nomad. Your deeds define your destiny, your heart will guide your deeds.
Villains raid bases and farm new players for kills, whereas Heroes save new players and fight off evil. The Knights quest to become Heroes by repairing spawn and helping new players. The Undead swarm around spawn, killing new players and upgrading their gear to become Villains. The Nobles help provide supplies and housing for new players by constructing large cities away from the spawn and surrounding combat area. The Goblins are dedicated to griefing spawn and nearby structures, often only focused on causing destruction. The Fairies are simply friendly and social, not focused on any sort of combat. The Dark Fairies are similar to fairies, but they are a little more bitey! Nomads tend to themselves, and wander the land.
Overall, these factions are purely representative of a player’s reputation and have no effect on the actual mechanics of the game. No colour or title provides additional privileges beyond indicating how trustworthy, PvP skilled, or building inclined you are! For more information on these reputation Factions, please check out our PMC page listed above!
Server Rules:
NO Cheating! Any form of exploiting the game, be it through vanilla or modded methods, will result in an immediate ban without warning. Use Common Sense! Advertising, Server Disrespect, Lagging the Server, Asking for OP, Begging to join Factions, etc. are all things that can get you banned.
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2022.01.21 20:57 huntshowdownshorts Crossbow Shotbolt Is Life

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2022.01.21 20:57 russtncg Pool vs Solo

Hey all! I'm relatively new to mining, been learning a lot as quickly as I can. I wanted to ask for thoughts on pool vs solo mining, especially with the recent headlines around that solo miner getting 170ETH with 2GH/s capacity! ;-)
Here is my setup:
45 3080TIs + 24 3090s for a total (monitored and verified) hashrate of 6.79GHs on HiveOn pool. Similar numbers on NH. I'm running all my rigs on HiveOS and using T-Rex latest.
Currently, I am collecting .11 ETH/day (.8/week and 3.2/month)
According to 2cryptocalc, solo mining would generate 2.14ETH/month in rewards.
It seems like the simple answer would be to keep doing pools, but I wanted to get thoughts, ideas, and opinions from those more experienced.
Thanks all in advance!
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2022.01.21 20:57 StephenPratt Comedy Show this Saturday Night!

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2022.01.21 20:57 w1ll0w3 In desperate need of nixie

I’ve been looking for her forever I just want a butterfly squish if anyone is selling her let me know.
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2022.01.21 20:57 NFT_DigitalArt TIL You can deploy WebGL Unity games on OpenSea.io as a NFT [X-post from /r/Rarible]

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2022.01.21 20:57 mattman092 Louder for the people in the back!!!!

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What's Up With Prince Andrew's Teddy Bear Obsession?
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2022.01.21 20:57 Nohan07 La justice révèle les dessous d'une affaire qui en cache beaucoup d'autres

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2022.01.21 20:57 ecc_dg 2021 CLEP Official Study Guide

I just wrapped up my last CLEP so I don't have the need for the study guide. If anyone wants my physical copy of the 2021 CLEP Guide (the one with practice questions for all of the exams,) let me know and I'll be happy to send it to you at no cost.
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